control your emotion or it will control you

I can’t be sure but you flirt with her a lot in a public place and I know she’s 20 and...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Thu, 13 Dec 2012 00:19:57 -0500

I can’t be sure but you flirt with her a lot in a public place and I know she’s 20 and you’re not but that means you don’t mind flirting younger and I don’t know if you actually like her or if you’re just nice but she lives in Australia and I live closer but why do I get the feeling that you don’t like me like that at all when everyone else says they think that you do?

I just don’t want to care so much that it hurts if you don’t care about me the same way but here I am watching you flirt with someone else and all I want to do is cry and I can’t even blame all of it on my hormones from being on my period right now because I know I’d be upset anyway.

I just wish I had a dance studio to lose myself in right now because the best way to get out anger and jealousy is to dance it out but I can’t. I just have to bottle it up inside and it’s fucking killing me.

I don’t really know how many times I have to have this conversation. I’m not living...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Wed, 12 Dec 2012 23:47:00 -0500

I don’t really know how many times I have to have this conversation.

I’m not living there because I don’t have any money to live there. I’m being a responsible adult and I’m not going to make the same mistakes you did, as you’ve reminded us over and over again that we shouldn’t do. I love you, I do, but my life does not revolve around you. It doesn’t at all. As much as I would love to just move up there on a whim, I can’t and I won’t. I have to be responsible. I’m a fucking art major with an associates degree. I need stability before I move up there. I’m not going to become another toaster, throwing myself in completely unprepared.

I will be up there in 2 years.

Until then you’re going to have to act like the 25+ year old that you are and GROW THE FUCK UP. I AM NOT MOVING UP THERE YET.

I never understood the point of bitching about a person, using their name in the post, in a place...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Wed, 03 Oct 2012 17:08:00 -0400

I never understood the point of bitching about a person, using their name in the post, in a place where they check and are a part of. If you want them to know that you’re frustrated that they got more attention than you, BITCH TO THEM PRIVATELY. Otherwise, ya know, don’t say anything.

Also this is why people think you’re an attention whore. Because you are angry that your friend got more attention than you.

You ever wonder how the rest of us feel? Welcome to our lives.

I just don’t understand how saying it’s a low blow for me to kiss boys that my friend...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Mon, 28 May 2012 01:33:46 -0400

I just don’t understand how saying it’s a low blow for me to kiss boys that my friend likes at her birthday party and then saying how I’m asking for it and making it a competition and all that jazz and THEN saying that you weren’t trying to imply that I’m a whore. I don’t know what you were trying to say if that wasn’t it.

But I like how you never answer my text posts unless of course it’s someone that you know and then you’re all up in my business.

That’s pretty cool.

seems a bit like you’re begging for attention. ….guess you don’t want out as much...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Wed, 16 May 2012 12:07:53 -0400

seems a bit like you’re begging for attention.

….guess you don’t want out as much as you claim.

he’s never going to love you.

he’s just not.

we’re discussing how many kids we want. too soon too soon abort abort abort this is scaring...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 20:49:49 -0500

we’re discussing how many kids we want.

too soon too soon abort abort abort this is scaring me.

I’m scared. I’m so scared. We’ve been dating less than a week. We’ve been...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 20:17:10 -0500

I’m scared. I’m so scared.

We’ve been dating less than a week. We’ve been friends for like weeks.

And when I’m with friends I say shit like “I love you” and “omg this is our kid” but suddenly when I’m in a relationship I’m like “omg what if you’re serious. You want kids with me? You want to be married to me? You love me?”

And it just scares me.

Because this is too soon.

I don’t understand the need to draw attention to the people you dislike. If you really...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Sat, 25 Feb 2012 03:49:32 -0500

I don’t understand the need to draw attention to the people you dislike. If you really don’t care, then don’t take the extra 30 seconds to bash them. Just ignore it.

Who the fuck cares if they’re fucking up their future? Who the fuck cares if they have a new boyfriend? If you really don’t care, then ignore it. It doesn’t concern you. What good does it do to bring it to everyone’s attention?

I told you the first time. I told you the second time. I told you a third time. And now I hear...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Mon, 09 Jan 2012 22:17:06 -0500

I told you the first time. I told you the second time. I told you a third time.

And now I hear hushed whispers downstairs, no doubt complaining about me.

You can’t yell at me for being cranky when you don’t listen to me, and I listen to you complain about me.

You know what would be nice? You know how you always complain about how we never hang out anymore?...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 08:46:37 -0500

You know what would be nice?

You know how you always complain about how we never hang out anymore? I’d like you to look back on all the plans that we’ve had this semester that have fallen through. Every single time it’s because you bailed.

I’m done.

whyyy does everything have to be turned into a shirt?

ronstoppableismypatronus — Sun, 18 Dec 2011 02:50:54 -0500

Can’t there be one thing related to Darren that doesn’t get made into a t-shirt?

I know you’re responding to this maturely, but I can’t help wanting to punch you in the...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Mon, 12 Dec 2011 13:26:49 -0500

I know you’re responding to this maturely, but I can’t help wanting to punch you in the face regardless.

I can do whatever the hell I want. You’re like 12.

This is petty and stupid and you’re pissing me the fuck off.

I didn’t realize you were the queen of this shit.

It’s the internet. Scroll on by.

I’m just going to sit here and cry because I’m so stressed. What part of “everyone...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Mon, 05 Dec 2011 09:39:47 -0500

I’m just going to sit here and cry because I’m so stressed.

What part of “everyone else bails for homework but me” do you not get? I have finals this week.

I don’t sleep. I work. And do homework in between the time.

But no. Everyone else who’s on a normal 4-year college plan can bail for homework. What, because I’m already going to be in school for longer, why not push it further?

This is supposed to be a part time job.

Everyone keeps saying “you know you can tell her no.”

Apparently I can’t.

when you talk to a girl you like about another girl that you like. and then you talk to the other...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 01:42:24 -0500

when you talk to a girl you like about another girl that you like.

and then you talk to the other girl that you like about being a wingman to get the guy that she likes.

yay.

when you talk to a girl you like about another girl that you like. both being girls you...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 00:29:23 -0500

when you talk to a girl you like about another girl that you like.

both being girls you haven’t met.

welp.

I’m just sitting in the silence. It’s cold. But I just. I just. Everything hurts.

ronstoppableismypatronus — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 13:37:10 -0500

I’m just sitting in the silence.

It’s cold.

But I just.

I just.

Everything hurts.

I just can’t do this anymore. I can’t do anything right and I get bitched at for...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Sun, 27 Nov 2011 22:24:20 -0500

I just can’t do this anymore.

I can’t do anything right and I get bitched at for talking back.

Fuck them all for moving away from me so I have no place to run.

I’m sorry. Not to belittle your Home Depot job, but please don’t sit over there and tell...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Mon, 21 Nov 2011 23:24:26 -0500

I’m sorry. Not to belittle your Home Depot job, but please don’t sit over there and tell me my job isn’t hard.

And don’t tell me that “all you have to do is make them smile.”

You want to deal with kids who just woke up from their naps, kids who have been shoved into holiday clothes, kids who are unhappy, newborn babies and their mothers who want everything to be perfect and nothing is ever good enough.

You wanna deal with that? Be my guest.

You can go to work at 7:30am.

Please. I want to see you handle this better.

I just got so frustrated. Because my heart fluttered to see your name on my caller ID. And you were...

ronstoppableismypatronus — Fri, 18 Nov 2011 13:47:18 -0500

I just got so frustrated.

Because my heart fluttered to see your name on my caller ID.

And you were calling to tell me that I can come in to work. When I was scheduled.

Ok.

Like. Duh.

Also, I’m not the one who needs a call to remind me. Your ass is the one who needs a reminder since MY ASS has covered for YOUR ASS when YOU don’t pick up the fucking phone and I VOLUNTEER to HELP YOU OUT AND YOU DON’T FUCKING SHOW.

But I’m not mad.

this is why I was hesitant.

ronstoppableismypatronus — Wed, 16 Nov 2011 21:38:59 -0500

I was 100% ok with this, but you’ve hooked up with all three of my best friends.

How am I supposed to compete with girls who have sex?

And then we had that conversation and I thought I didn’t have to compete.

But apparently I still am. Because you’re still trying to get with them too.

And now I don’t know how I feel about this.

We’re not dating, no strings attached, but really? You have to go after my best friends? You can’t pick girls I don’t know?